Laura - It's Coming to an End (Thursday, May 30th)

Here we are living the last day of our “cruising life.”  We’re anchored off an uninhabited island, Devil’s Cay, in the Berry Islands.  There are three other boats anchored here with us, all waiting out the storm so we can get on our separate ways.  We were hoping to find other cruisers while here in the Bahamas, and it took a good storm to bring us all together for a week tucked into a safe anchorage.  Having friends nearby during stormy days makes it a whole lot more fun.
 
I have such mixed feelings today.  I am so sad to see this great adventure come to an end.  We have experienced highs and lows, ups and downs, trials and tribulations.  And such great joy.  The pleasure of being surrounded by my family, nearly every moment of every day for the past nine months, has been truly amazing.  I don’t want that part of it to ever end.  I wish it could go on forever, the five of us living completely intertwined lives.  
 
On the other hand, I look forward to returning to life on land.  I miss my extended family and our friends.  I miss the more “normal” worries of our traditional life.  It will be a relief to know that even in a storm, I can get myself and my family safely from one place to another.  It will be refreshing to have the convenience of a grocery store within a few miles of my home; to know that if I run out of flour that doesn’t mean we’re finished with bread and pancakes until the storm ends (sometime within a week) and we can make our way across the twenty-five miles to the nearest food store.  It will be so relaxing to lay my head down on my pillow at night and not worry about the anchor dragging if the winds pick up too high in the night – or worrying that the anchor of the other boats in the anchorage might drag and collide with us.
 
I will miss the convenience of looking out the porthole to see if our friends are on their way over for dinner, or do I have a few more minutes before I put the conch and potato chowder on the table for our shared meal.  I will miss sitting next to Paul each morning on the nav station bench, listening to the weather forecast on the SSB radio while I hear each of my precious children wake around me.  I will miss combing the beach for treasures with Claire while Paul burns our trash downwind of us.  Will I ever again have the joy of the five of us snuggled up in one bed while we watch a few episodes of Modern Family?
 
I can’t wait to hug my sisters and meet my new nephews and niece.  I look so forward to the opportunity to laugh with my friends and to hear the laughter of my nieces and nephews.  I look forward to sitting in Oma’s kitchen while hearing her catch us up on what has happened while we were away.  The day can’t come soon enough when I can play Mexican Train with my mom on her patio.  Oh, how many more days do I have to wait before I can eat, drink and be merry with all of our dear family!!!
 
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I can’t wait.  But I wish this would never end.